The older I get, the more allergic to responsibility I become
Does anyone else feel like they tried to have it all figured out too soon?
My mum always says I was an incredibly organised, serious child. She loves to tell the story of how I used to line my dolls up in an orderly fashion, and I've been reflecting on how much of that energy I carried into my early twenties. When most of my friends were at uni, rolling through for days at a time, I spent many evenings searching for my next internship and then, at 21, launching a business. I had to be DOING stuff and to have a plan.
I don't have regrets, but part of me has been questioning whether the sense of responsibility that I've felt from a young age (self-imposed and otherwise) has led to the allergic reaction I'm now having when it comes to looking after anything beyond myself. This is partly because my duties for others have defined a significant chunk of my twenties - whether through caring for a sick parent, being financially responsible for others, running a business, or managing people. But these are the things that adulting is all about, right?
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